2007-01-28
Les notes au hasard ！ 小说体验！
一下子激发某种潜在的基因，明白很多大众觉得不可理解的体验，当然前提我还是大众，沉默的大多数。
《感观世界》里的阿部定的心态，突然觉得她不是色情狂。她不小心成了一个认真的女人，对他人认真，对自己更是认真，对现在负责，对充满不安定的未来也想愈加掌控。性欲不过是个无聊的借口，也就是这个龌鹾的借口保住了她的性命，只有这个才是大众能理解的理由。一根枯干的阳具开启的是一段美妙的回忆，当然那回忆和床完全无关。
姑且用一个大众字眼阐述某种复杂的情感体验――安全感。这个词还是比较片面，但是合理的词汇还没有产生。安全感成了全部感情的支撑。在没有的时候，在拥有的时候，在未来或失去或拥有的时候。可以说是爱，是嫉妒，是占有欲，是肾上腺激素，或者是什么都可以，它顽固的存在任何人的内心，只是有些强烈有些细弱。时不时的出来折腾一下，造就了无数痴男怨女。
什么才能最终极的成就安全感？死亡。这是能想到唯一的答案。人是不可被信任的，死亡是对诺言最好的诠释。
想到了nick cave的一首歌曲，《where the wild roses grow》，一下子也明白了那个男子。
死亡，男人，女人，鲜艳的玫瑰，多么鬼魅的气息……
they call me the wild rose
but my name was elisa day
why they call me it i do not know
for my name was elisa day
from the first day i saw i knew she was the one
as she stared in my eyes and smiled
for her lips were the colour of the roses
that grew down the river, all bloody and wild
when he knocked on my door and entered the room
my trembling subsided in his sure embrace
he would be my first man, and with a careful hand
he wiped at the tears that ran down my face
(CHORUS)
they call me the wild rose
but my name was elisa day
why they call me it i do not know
for my name was elisa day
on the second day i brought her a flower
she was more beautiful than any woman i'd seen
i said,"do you know where the wild roses grow
so sweet and scarlet and free?"
on the second day he came with a single red rose
said:"will you give me your loss and your sorrow?"
i nodded my head, as i lay on the bed
he said,"if i show you the roses will you follow?"
he call me the wild rose
but my name was elisa day
why he call me it i do not know
for my name was elisa day
on the third day he took me to the river
he showed me the roses and we kissed
and the last thing i heard was a muttered word
as he stood smiling above me with a rock in his fist
on the last day i took her where the wild roses grow
and she lay on the bank, the wind light as a thief
as i kissed her goodbye, i said,"all beauty must die"
and lent down and planted a rose between her teeth
they call me the wild rose
but my name was elisa day
why they call me it i do not know
for my name was elisa day
每天/和你在一起/吃饭/做爱/交谈/一切的一切
希望你马上死去/被飞驰的火车/被掉落的砖瓦/……
支离破碎/
当在这世界上再也找不到任何存在你气息的证据/我的心才平静下来/
我完完全全的占有了你/你也完完全全的属于了我
所有的一切都是因为/我太爱你
我爱你/你必须死亡
多好的创意呀，可惜大众肯定不买账。
lolitalin 发表于 2007-01-28 11:43:44 | 阅读